WARNING this is a HUGE chapter! 😄
Wow! I had never felt so amazing in my whole life! I had conquered my fear and stood up to that evil woman. I decided to use this bought of confidence to its full potential. I got on the phone and made a couple of calls. One to Nilla and the other to Turq. I asked Turq to meet at Skittles Park and Nilla? Well I will get back to that later.
As I walked across those all too familiar teal and purple tiles my heart began to race, and when I saw Turq heading my direction it only got worse. I smiled and waved and walked to meet him. I gave him a warm hug and motioned for him to take a seat on the near by bench.
He sat down and I followed, but I was so nervous it took me a while to actually slide back to a comfortable position. I tapped my fingers nervously on my lap.
“I was surprised to hear from you, seeing its a work day and all.”
“I know, that is kinda what I needed to talk to you about.”
“Yes. I quit my Job today.”
“Yes I just couldn’t deal with that beast of a boss one second longer.”
“Well I guess it is all right. We can make due. Come here.”
He leaned in to put his arm around me and I froze. I shook my head and pressed him gently back.
“Wait. There’s more.”
I couldn’t hardly believe what I was doing.
I swallowed hard and to my surprise the words slipped swiftly from my lips.
“Turq. I don’t think I am ready for this.” I could see the look of fear mixed with confusion across his sweet face.
“W-what do you mean Fair?”
“I don’t think this marriage is what…I want anymore.”
I could feel a dead eerie silence all around. It was almost as if all the birds and bustling world had suspended just to make this moment even more intense.
I looked over and saw him sitting there, head dropped in disappointment and sadness. This was so awful! It hurt my heart to see him sitting there like that, and to know I couldn’t possibly help to comfort him. I sat silent for several minutes. Finally Turq broke the silence with one single word.
“You know what? I don’t want to know.”
“Turq I am so sorry.”
“You’re Sorry…Have you been just stringing me a long all this time?”
“No! I Really did love you.”
“Turq things change. I have changed so much and in turn feelings change. It was never my intention to hurt you, I swear.”
“Well intended to or not. You did Fairy. You have hurt me deeper than any one ever has. I can hardly believe this is acutally happening.”
“I loved you with all my heart, but if you don’t feel the same way, well I don’t want to be married to someone who does not want to be married to me.”
As he spoke those final words his voice began to crack.
“Good bye Fairy. I hope you find happiness in your life with out me.”
“Turq wait.” But there was no waiting. He turned around and he was gone.
I sat there alone in my thoughts for a several moments. I really hoped I knew what I was doing. I grabbed my phone and rang up Nilla again. She got me the information I needed, and I quickly went to it. I knew her of all people would be able to get it for me. If she was nosy enough to follow me across 2 cities, I knew she could do this.
As I walked up the steps to Merlot’s home, the butterflys started almost instantly. I reached the front door and I gingerly placed my finger on the doorbell. I could hear the faint chime from the other side of the large glass door, but nobody stirred. I waited about a minute or so and decided to ring it one more time. This time I could hear foot steps. They pounded in my head louder and louder as they reached the door. To my surprise it was a small elderly woman who greeted me.
She opened the door and invited me inside. I could see the resemblance when she smiled. As I entered I looked around seeing if I could find Merlot. I could not.
“Come in dear. Are you a friend of Merlots?”
“Yes Ma’am. I was wondering if he was home?”
“Oh Please call me Clairette, and you are?”
“Oh. My name is Fairy”
“Well I am so sorry Fairy but he is not home right now. This is his late night at work.”
I think she could sense the disappointment because she followed the statement with.
“Would you like to try him at work? I can give you instructions.”
I smiled and nodded. “Yes Clairette that would be lovely.”
She walked over to the small end table, grabbed a piece of paper and jotted down some quite detailed instructions. She began to hand the paper to me and then quickly pulled it back. “Only one condition.”
I paused. “Yes?”
“You must come and see me again sometime soon.”
She nodded and handed the paper over. I took the paper from her and thanked her as I saw my way out.
I stepped from the cab and began to run toward the security office. As my bare feet hit the wet grass it dawned on me I had forgotten my shoes. Dang! Too late now. I kept on to the guards booth. I stopped a few yards away and slowed my pace to a walk. Probably not a smart idea to run full speed up to a security guard booth in the middle of the night.
I tapped on the glass and the security guard pressed away from his desk and came over to unlock the door. I think he was kinda surprised to see a bare foot woman standing on the other side. I nervously smiled back at him.
“Hi I was wondering if you could get a message to Merlot Pinot Noir for me?”
“Pinot Noir?” he walked over to the computer and quickly typed something in and came back.
“Yes he is on the schedule. Let me call over there.”
He was on the line for several minutes before someone picked up.
“Yes. Can I please speak to Merlot Pinot Noir…..uh huh. Ok. Thank you.” He placed the phone back in its cradle.
“I am sorry Ma’am Merlot never came in this evening.”
“I see. Well thank you for your time.”
I felt my heart sink even deeper. All that hype and excitement and then nothing. I thanked the guard and called another cab to get me home. Man this was one expensive trip!
I got in the cab, I leaned forward to talk through the grate and gave the cabby my address. I sat back in my seat and I sighed heavily. Maybe this was a mistake. Throwing my life away on a crazy whim. On a person I only really knew from my dreams. Maybe I should just drive home and forget this whole crazy thing. What if I had just ruined my only chance for a happy marriage.
I placed my elbow on the side rest and dropped my chin into my palm. I looked out the window just as we passed a small park area and I recognized it almost instantly.
“Stop the car please!”
The cab pulled to a stop.
I payed the cabby and jumped from the car. I ran as fast as my little bare feet could carry me to that swing. He had to be there! I just knew it. There he would be, waiting at the swing to greet me with open arms.
I have to say I was quite relieved to see not a single trace of weeds. Everything was just as beautiful as it always was.
As I neared the swing I searched with my eyes, no one was there. My over confident buzz had completely dissipated. Reality was sinking back in. You really messed up big on this one Fair.
I took my oh so familiar seat on the swing. I dug my toes into the soft dirt and grass and gently swayed side to side. I closed my eyes and the tears began to flow. Nothing like my nightmare. I let them drop freely like large raindrops.
I was so caught up in my pitty party, I did not even hear as some one came up behind me. All of a sudden I felt the swing stop mid sway.
“Fancy meeting you here.”
I was so startled I jumped from the swing and screamed.
I turned around and to my great relief, I saw those beautiful purple eyes staring back at me from behind the swing. I just started to walk forward as he came to me.
“I’d hoped I might find you here.” I replied, trying to shake the sounds of crying from my voice.
“Well I have to say I am a bit surprised to see you.”
I felt so ashamed for the way I had acted. I dropped my head into my hand. “Merlot, I never should have said those awful things to you. I was a crazy fool. It wasn’t your fault the way things had come to be. There was no way for either of us to know.”
“I know that beautiful.” Whoosh I was set ablaze once again. I had to gather my thoughts.
“Please let me finish.”
“I may have ruined any chance of ever being with you, but I still need to say this. Merlot I love you. I always have, from that moment I saw you standing on my door. I tried to fight it, but it was impossible. I fell in love with you long before and my life never felt right with out you. When the dreams stopped my life became so empty and meaningless, and then I met Turq and he did help to fill the emptiness a little, but it just was not that same. I was in total denial.
I broke it off with Turq today. I just couldn’t keep lying to myself and to him any longer. But if it is too late, you just say the w-”
He stopped me mid sentence, looped his arm around my waist and pulled me in close. I could feel the heat radiating and shivers ran through my body. We stared into each others eyes and time seemed to stand still, then he finally spoke.
“There is nothing in this world that you could possibly do or say that would ever make me stop loving you.”
I could feel the words enter my body and I just knew I was going to melt into a huge puddle right there.
Then the moment I had only been waiting my entire life to experience finally happened. He pulled me even closer and kissed me. It was just as I had always imagined it would be. Nothing was spared. Fireworks! Flames! Electricity. This was what real love felt like, and it felt amazing!
I guess dreams really can come true.